Mental Health Diary

| mental health | polyamory | struggles | journaling | self-improvement

Why am I writing this? Mainly for me. I actually journal in handwriting, but I want it to look back on. Should I share my mental health with the internet? Meh. Probably not. But if my journey can help just ONE person, it’s worth it.

For forever I have neglected my mental health. I’ve known, for a very long time, that I am bi-polar. Shhh…are we allowed to even say that anymore? I took medicine years ago, and hated it. It made me feel like a zombie. I haven’t since. I’m sure advances have been made, or tweaks needed to be made for me, but I just hated it. My sex drive went to zero. And, well, from my other writings, you know how much I love sex. Those meds also erased all my happy. All my “highs.” I love my highs. I don’t get so high into mania that I go nuts and buy stuff on Amazon for no reason like a lot of people do, I just get really happy for no real reason. Maybe it was one little thing that sent me up there. I really liked them. But, I hated the lows. I still hate the lows.

This is an intro to my diary. The actual entries will be date. The reason for me starting it this time is my journey deep into polyamory for the first time. I hope that didn’t make 70% of you stop reading. Actually, I hope it intrigued some of you. I’ve had struggles with balance — severe struggles. And I put…